Challenges

I am realizing that some days are a lot lot lot harder than others to implement the teachings of a course of Miracles. The thought is running through my mind as why it feels so much easier to get angry and upset then look at things with love and understanding. I have a feeling that the hormonal cycle of my body definitely has something to do with this but I’m sure there are other factors as well. Yesterday evening I felt especially challenged buy multiple events to not lose my cool and remember to look at things with love. Even this morning was a challenge. Granted the night sleeping has been absolutely terrible so I’m very tired and that really does play into it. But why is it still difficult to choose love over getting angry and upset. It shouldn’t be easier to get angry and upset then it is to be loving and understanding. I hope by the end of the study it will be the reverse.